[…] she was always looking for a way out, a poros. She was always inventing and borrowing good expedients, for - this is my hypothesis - she was unwilling to lament her fate, but was also disinclined to be consoled by illusions. She did not believe there was a way out, ultimately. She was unwilling to believe, then, or not believe, I’d say - unwilling to be duped or disillusioned either, and so she played, to use an expression she herself often employs - on two terrains at once: the terrain of confidence and the terrain of despair, uncompromisingly.
In this respect she resembled Eros, the child that Penia, who got left out on the doorstep like a beggar when the gods gathered to feast, cleverly contrived to conceive with Poros as he sleepily luxuriated, drunk on nectar. Eros, Kofman wrote, inherited the contradictory characteristics of both his parents - those of his female parent, Penia the indigent, and those of his male parent, Poros, rich in resources. Eros himself is neither rich nor poor, female nor male, but rather just apt to let slip through his fingers all the gains his cleverness wins him as he is fertile with clever stratagems whenever hardship grips him. Eros is a daimon, Kofman writes, in Comment s’en sortir; he is an intermediary being, foreign to the logic of identity and a stranger to simple oppositions. Neither mortal nor immortal, neither a fool nor a sage, he spends all his life philosophizing. […]